In working on the voiceover for my film, A Thousand Moments Later I created this outline as a means of working through, in my head and out loud, the details of what it is that I'd like to say....but from my of a academic point of view.
Or perhaps a better way of saying this is, this following outlines points at the meaning behind the voice-over, which I hope is much more beautiful than the following dry academic prose.
Outlines....they are always an interesting exercise. Indeed one of the most enjoyable aspects of writing for me. But it may not make a lot of sense because I write from the outside in. What I mean by this is I take the big picture and whittle my way into the details. This means that this kind of outline is both very important to my process, and never really a completed document. It has a life of it's own and grows and chances constantly. Therefore, it may not make a great deal of sense to anyone but me.
Sorry for that. Still, I thought it might be interesting to someone out there. So here it is.
Each part reflects a section from the film. Making somewhat of a loose argument and expressing in it's entirety the thesis and theme of the film.
- Self and Isolation
- a strong sense of self implicitly cuts one off the the others and creates a feeling of isolation.
- from here this sense of self becomes rigid. well defined. set in its own ways. Separate. Alone.
- Relation and The Other
- When self is seen within the context of a relation a certain cognitive process can take place - what Martin Buber called the "I" "It" relation.
- (If viewed incorrectly ) Inherent in this relation is two seperate identities viewed as alone and wholly seperate. Me here; you over there.
- This leads to a kind of tension explicit in the division of the two.
- This then deepens the rigid sense of self as a seperate "thing" with it's own likes and dislikes that are owned by only itSelf.
- When these are left unfulfilled tension implicit in this relation solidifies into resentment.
- Self & Other/Mereology
- But when two separate selves are viewed as something bigger than mere singles entities something else happens. This is technically name mereology — place enough timber together and in the right order and you can have a chair.
- What is it that gives rise to the feeling that we are greater than ourselves?
- What is it that creates this larger entity. When does a bunch of sticks become a chair?
- Clearly it is us that decides.
- But this choice to couple two person together and call it something else gives rise to a feeling of togetherness.
- And this is a conscious choice.
- Shared Identity & Eudaemonia.
- With a sense of you are bigger than yourSelf come a sense of well being.
- This comes because you are no longer focused on yourSelf.
- You begin to focus on this shared identity rather than just your own perspective.
- The mind become larger, wider, deeper.
- Dependence & Imbalance
- But if this shared identity is taken to be the source of happiness for oneSelf then there is an cognitive imbalance. That is to say, a sense of well-being can come from a shared identity but not always.
- This belief will grow into a feeling of dependence. As if your happiness is dependent on this thing that is separate from you.
- When this is done you've in effect created a self identity and thus another "I" and "It". Only the "It" is the relation itself and not another person.
- This happens mostly at a level of consciousness that is below ordinary thinking. At a feeling tone. Something spoken without words.
- At this point it has turned dysfunctional. That is, the shared identity is no longer shared and as a result it has broken down.
- Loss of Self (Control)
- Implicit in this feeling of dependence is a feeling of a lack of control - as if one's Self is dependent on this shared identity for it's existence.
- From there feelings of losing yourSelf arise.
- And from there ridigness and confusion
- Blaming the other for this loss of control may arise because the subtle shift from shared identity, to imbalance, to dysfunction was not noticed.
- This can result in one lashing out at the perceived source of misery.
- Removing oneSelf from the experience is the only option.
- We Always Have Choice
- There is in fact little one can do at this point.
- Something must change. Something will change. Whether you want it to or not.
- In the end the only thing you can do is choice. Not making a choice is still a choice. It is a choice to act in the same dysfunctional manner you've been doing so far.
- So you must be brave, believe in your own potential, and jump.
- What is this jump? It is the simple act of choosing.
- If you want to be alone, choose that.
- If you want a sense of togetherness and well-being that is greater than oneSelf, choose that.
- But to do so one must redefine love as something that you give rather than something you get if a shared identity is to remain in balance and this requires a conscious ongoing choice to give.
- Therefore, in the end, to love, is to choice to love.
(In Buddhism love is defined as an aspiration or wish that one or many have happiness and it's causes. It is therefore something we give and thus a very different way of viewing "love." )
This is a working document. It may change over time. And I may in fact create articles for each section.